2016, You've Treated Me Well

Saturday, December 31, 2016

2016 has been a year full of changes for the world. A racist, sexist, idiotic man is going to run one of the biggest countries in the world, Brexit happened and only happened because people voted leave for the fun of it, never thinking their vote would make a difference. I don't even have words. Many icons left us, people leave us every year, but when icons such as George Michael, Prince and Alan Rickman, to name a few leave us, I think we're all reminded life is so precious and we should never take it for granted. 2016 obviously hasn't been the worst year in history, but it does seem like the whole year was just one tragic event after another, after another. It was like something would happen, everyone was thinking "this can not get any worse" and then bam, it did, again and again. Personally, 2016 was a mixture of good and bad moments. 

Every year I've spent New Years Eve counting down the seconds to the upcoming year, hoping and praying it would be better than the last. And although I'm excited for the endless possibilities and new adventures in 2017, I don't want this year to end. 2016 marks the year that everything fell into place.

The last 6 months have been a whirlwind full of special moments spent with people that I now, can't imagine life without. The months January to June, don't hold much memories for me and were pretty much non existent. July kicked off with me and my family going to Turkey, hoping to enjoy the sun and just be away from day to day life. But then we became ill for the majority of it and obviously we just wanted to come home, just totally ruined the holiday. It was a shame because the hotel and views were so beautiful, but there's nothing worse than being ill and bed bound while on holiday. And then 16th July came around and my life changed. 16th July will always hold a special place in my heart. That day was the day I met my best friends. I talked about the days events in this blog post here in more detail. The rest of the Summer consisted of endless trips to Leeds, now my home away from home, spending time with friends, eating our weight in chips, hourly trips to Tesco and begging the local Indian to use their loo. Ah the memories.

Fast forward to October which was without a doubt one of the worst but best month of the whole year. My grandma sadly passed away at the beginning of the month. And as you can imagine, if you've ever lost someone, it broke my heart. She'd been ill for a while and watching your relative in pain, suffering everyday, there's nothing you want more than for them to be at peace. There's many people that think that when you're told that your relative is dying that it somehow prepares you for when they do pass away. But in my personal experiences, it never makes it easier. It's still a great comfort for me that I ended up being there when she peacefully, passed away. This was probably the first Christmas since I lost my grandad that I just wanted the day to be over. Everyone knows how much I love Christmas but we pretty much spent the whole day in silence. It's the first Christmas in which I've had no grandparents to send a card to or go to visit and even after Christmas is technically over, I'm still finding that hard to get my head around. And I think I always will. We're planning on having a second Christmas dinner to make up for our actual one, over the New Year weekend. And yes pigs in blankets round 2 is happening. Hell yeah. The best part of October was being able to attend the Halloween ball which was in memory of Isaac Maley and in aid of Once Upon A Smile. I got to spend a whole night with my best friends while raising money for an incredible charity. Such a special and memorable night to be a part of.

I've always found it hard to make friends who supported me in everything I did, who had similar interests to myself and who treated me like friends should. I was bullied for the whole of my high school years so I guess that experience always stuck with me and with the things I'd been made to believe, I just gave up on having friends and accepted that I was going to be one of those people who went about life with no friends. So for me it's so weird that I finally have friends that I can rely on 100%. And god, as soppy as it sounds and I'll probably never live this down, I love them SO much. I know this friendship will last a lifetime, because it's different. And it feels different.

It's so crazy to say that I met my friends through a soap. Without Danny Miller and Ryan Hawley, I wouldn't be writing this blog post right now, it's as simple as that. I've said this so many times, that I've lost count but I owe them everything and so much more. Their on screen relationship changed my life and introduced me to people who were once strangers. It's crazy to think that if I hadn't seen Bridie's tweet about the goings on in Emmerdale and realised someone else loved Emmerdale as much as I did and if I hadn't been on twitter that night, things could be so different. 

"Everything happens for a reason" is a quote I've always tossed around, believing in it, but never really believing in it, if you understand. Everything that has happened, every little tiny thing that has happened to me, lead me to this moment. As cringy and cliche as it sounds, it's true. You're put into situations through out your life to test how strong you are and to prove that you can make it through anything. And although my teenage years were nothing but bad memories, in a weird way I'm grateful for how everything turned out. If I hadn't gone through what I did, I wouldn't be who I am now. I am a totally different person to who I was 5 or 6 years ago. I'm so much more confident and I'm no longer afraid to stand up for myself. Although at the time it was the last thing I wanted, I am so happy those friendships didn't work out. 

I hit no blog milestones, I haven't worked with multiple companies and have blog posts and products to prove it. But you know what? To me it doesn't even matter. I let my blog go this year, because I decided to put my happiness first and blogging just became stressful and I found myself comparing my blog to others and that's not what I want my blogging experience to be about. 2017 will be the year I put more effort and time into blog, get fitter and heathier and I look forward to all the adventures the year will bring. 2017 is going to be my year and I will make sure of it. 

I hope everyone enjoys the last hours of 2016 however you're celebrating, whether you're going out or staying in. My last few hours will be spent with an Indian, trying to eat all the food and drink all the alcohol left over from Christmas while watching Harry Potter and watching the countdown surrounded by my loved ones. Over and Out.
2 comments on "2016, You've Treated Me Well "
  1. This was so lovely to read, I'm so happy that you had a great year :)
    Looking forward to reading your posts in the future!


    1. Thank you Kirsty! Hopefully I'll have a few posts soon! :)