Dear Diary: Do What Makes You Happy

Sunday, May 31, 2015

I've never wrote a blog post about what's going on behind the scenes as such. My blog has always been a place where I can write about things I love and I never want to bore you on my life. But I read a blog post by alittletwistof and it inspired me to write this particular post/update. I've been in education for around 14/15 years and I've recently come to the decision to leave education. I'm currently in my last few weeks of my Business course and as you all know, they start asking you about carrying on in college or going on to university. I was always adamant that I wouldn't go to University ever since I was in the early years of high school, although I would like to experience it, I think the amount University costs always put me off. But the college I attend allows the chance for students if they want to, to carry on and do a degree a lot cheaper and because I love Business and everything involved, I'd made my decision that I would carry on for another 2 years at college and leave with a degree in Business. 

I've never actually stated that I suffer from anxiety or stress but I do and throughout my GCSE period in high school and through out college, it has been a constant struggle, trying not to stress out too much, getting stressed and then getting annoyed at myself for stressing out over nothing. It was a never ending circle and looking back, I know my health was seriously affected. A few other things in my personal life have affected my anxiety and stress levels, which hasn't helped with my studies either, but I pushed on through.

And then about a week ago, I had a meltdown in the middle of a supermarket while with my mum and that made the decision for me. I wasn't going to go back to college. I honestly felt a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. I did get some funny looks, with my tear stained faced but hey! I can't control my emotions! It actually turned out that although they hadn't said anything to me, as it was down to me to make my own decision, both my mum and dad didn't want me to do the degree due to my health. So in the end, everyone is happy. 

Coming to the decision was quite a hard one and after I broke down, I was wondering whether I made the right decision. Would this affect me in the future? Would I not get a good job because I have no degree? But I know myself that my health is more important than education and for this moment in time, carrying on to do a degree is not the right thing to do. If in a couple of years time, if I decide I'm ready and my health won't be affected badly, I may revisit the possibility of doing my degree. But at this moment in time, I know leaving education is the right thing to do. 

So that's a little life update for you! I may do more of these types of posts when something interesting happens in my life. 

Have you made a similar decision recently?
6 comments on "Dear Diary: Do What Makes You Happy"
  1. Your health is definitely more important than a degree, and I don't think not having one will affect you getting a good job too much. I see loads of people on my Facebook from my school who never went to uni are doing pretty well for themselves! Probably better than me, I've just finished my degree and now I am a poor, jobless (almost) graduate in tonnes of debt, ha!

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  2. It's a tough decision to make and people may think I've choose the wrong thing to do, but all I care about is my health! I think it all depends what you want to do career wise!

  3. putting your health before your degree is the most important thing! I'm also studying and recently had a few panic attacks and asked myself if its worth it. there are so many more options other than university x

    1. It's scary how much pressure is put on everyone to go to University, it's not the right thing for everyone! I hope you're okay. There is so many other options and I'm currently looking into all of them! x

  4. Awww, my blog post inspired you? :o

    But hey, your health is so much more important than education at this point in time. Jobs are about, you just have to look! I'm currently in the midst of job-hunting myself, and it's getting me down, but things aren't going to happen right away - but they will when they're supposed to!

    No point running yourself into the ground, as it will make you feel worse!

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    1. Jot hunting is always draining! But I wish you luck! I do honestly feel so much better for the decision, so in that respect I know I've made the right choice!